
You did not grow up in the 1960s!. You survived a slow psychological experiment run by adults who smoked indoors and trusted furniture to stop nuclear fire.
People ask why you stay calm during collapse. Why panic slides off you. Simple answer. You rehearsed extinction before learning long division. Six years old. Feet flat on linoleum. Siren wailing. Teacher barking orders like a cruise director for the end of civilization. Duck. Cover. Hide under a desk made of plywood and prayer. Apocalypse solved.
You understood enough. You knew the desk solved nothing. You knew the adults knew. You learned the first big rule early. Reality lies. Authority smiles while lying.
This did not break you. This trained you. World ending tomorrow. Homework due tonight. Hold both ideas. Move on. Therapists later gave this a name and charged money. You called it Tuesday.
Once you rehearse vaporization, daily disasters lose punch. Lost job. Marriage wreck. Economy melting. Fine. Still no mushroom cloud. You keep moving. You learned triage young. Control what sits in reach. Ignore the rest. No mantra. No podcast. Skin level knowledge.
Then came February 1964. Four English kids hijack America on a black and white screen. Girls screaming like sirens. Parents staring like livestock watching fireworks. You saw culture flip in real time. One night. Gone. Old rules dead on arrival.
Lesson absorbed. Nothing stays put. Everything breaks fast. Change shows up unannounced and kicks furniture. You never trusted stability after that. You respected motion.
Then the bodies started dropping. Presidents. Prophets. Dreamers. Shot. Televised. Replayed. You learned hope travels with a bodyguard named grief. You learned progress bleeds. You learned heroes fall fast and cameras keep rolling.
Optimism survived. Naivete did not. You learned to hope with teeth clenched.
Childhood ran loose. You walked places alone. Handled coins. Real money. Heavy. Finite. You watched it disappear. Math taught itself. So did consequence.
You roamed neighborhoods without trackers or adults hovering like surveillance drones. You read streets. You clocked danger. You learned which doors stayed closed. Which dogs bit. Which grownups smiled wrong.
You got hurt. A lot. Bikes. Trees. Lawn darts. Chemistry kits designed by lunatics. You came home bleeding. Parents checked for missing limbs. Sent you back out. Pain taught difference between injured and dead.
Waiting shaped you. You waited for movies. You waited for songs. You waited for life to show up. Anticipation became muscle. Desire learned patience or starved.
Disputes happened without referees. No adults. No appeals. You solved problems or lost friends. Social intelligence grew fast or you ate alone.
Then July 1969. A man walks on the moon. Grainy footage. Static. Magic. You felt limits crack. If humans reached space, nothing stayed sacred.
Same decade. Vietnam on the evening news. Corpses between meatloaf bites. Authority lost shine. Competence mattered. Titles did not. Questioning became survival.
You absorbed contradiction. Progress happened. Horror happened. Both real. Neither canceled the other.
You learned trust feels better than safety theater. You learned freedom includes risk. You learned resilience grows from friction, not padding.
So here you stand. Calm during chaos. Skeptical during sales pitches. Hopeful without illusions. Built from sirens, assassinations, moon dust, scraped knees, and unsupervised hours.
That decade rewired your head. You carry the wiring still. The world needs people wired like this. People who expect collapse and still show up. People who know desks do not stop bombs but preparation stops panic.
That is what growing up then did to you. You did not get lucky. You got trained.


I feel like I should be watching Walter Chronkite sign off now.
Man, you nailed this. Brought me back to my mother’s kitchen eating pork chops and applesauce at breakneck speed so we could go out and play without helmets or bug spray. My mother whistled when it was time to come home.
Loved this essay.